Today

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 Another day has ended and I can finally sleep after a day of rising bile and acids. 

You see am a teacher in a public school and a class teacher and today we were on high gear preparing to release the girls for the much needed christmas break. And as usual parents send fare to the class teacher who forwards to the learners who inturn pay to some appointed teachers who finally hand over to the designated drivers to felly students to their various destinations.

Actually am more of a bursar than a teacher; since from the first week we open, am supposed to correct deposit slips, pocket money, remedial fee etc. Then do follow ups with erant parents who don't understand why teachers should be paid extra fee to give extra tuition to their girls who they on same breath want to be top academia.

So in the mere, I mixed up my personal money with these other collections and found my self with five thousand hole in my account. And the child has to go home and our big leader is like a mother in law from hell.and the tag of ’kikuyus are thieves' that I always struggle to dissociate from.and the shame of being dishonest with children's money.

So from yesterday I had one heck of a time,I tried all means and jins to get the deficit but no hope..and friends are

Only good when you don't want favors.

 Anyway it is sorted now.but am feeling tearful, for there is no honor in poverty. And your are alone when you have nothing to offer. I think the greatest hell is want. You are only as good as your abundance. Finally I have learnt that you can roll world over and make friends and have fun but the only person who truly cares is Family.strive to have one, love them and make them first..but that's just a battle won in a whole big war. Tomorrow I wake up to worry about, my fare home, how to pay back as I promised to do,and what to buy my son's christmas present as santa clause promised. But for now I sleep.Tomorow will care for tomorrow.

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